This day...
Had to see a doctor today and she was the most aggravating person I've ever dealt with! She and her superior are two of the most arrogant, conceited, and dismissive women i've ever had the displeasure of dealing with!
I'm old, dammit! I've been dealing with doctors, one on one, ever since I was 13. I KNOW my body. I KNOW when something is amiss. But when someone I've only met once ignores everything I say regarding everything I've been through, every medical professional's diagnosis before, and every symptom I'm having and have had, I get pissed!
There are strong, inspirational women with hearts, compassion, understanding, and the ability to truly hear another person. And then there are the snobbish bitches who look down their noses at anyone not them and predetermine who you are by some preconceived notion.
At my age, I really don't have time for this kind of shit.
I'm tired. I'm stressed. I'm worthy of better medical care and am due a lot more respect than what I received today.
Friday, July 10, 2020
Wednesday, June 24, 2020
Some people....
Some people...
I was raised in the church and taught the words of Jesus. 'Do unto others as you would have them do unto you' is something I learned by age five. 'Show kindness and be generous' came soon after that. Both my grandmothers were 'givers', and would give their last penny, last package of meat, last jar of canned goods, to help and bless their neighbors, and sometimes even their enemies.
I saw how good the receiver felt. I saw how much peace my grandmothers felt. I understood that it can be more blessed to give than to receive, and I've tried to practice this throughout my life.
Yet, I find myself surrounded by people who view a 'gift', an act of generosity, as suspect.
OR, the receiver wants more, to the point it feels like a leech sucking every last drop of blood from me. And, God forbid, if I say anything to put a stop to the blood-letting!
I guess I live in a time where common courtesy and human decency is no longer taught at home, or anywhere else, for that matter. It's every man out for himself and kindness, compassion, and generosity are viewed as a weakness, OR as a tool for dark motives.
Nothing is respected. Nothing is sacred. Nothing is held to a higher standard.
Just humans behaving uncivilized, selfish, careless, and without thought or consideration of anyone else.
Some people make life so sad and unsatisfactory.
Some people...
I was raised in the church and taught the words of Jesus. 'Do unto others as you would have them do unto you' is something I learned by age five. 'Show kindness and be generous' came soon after that. Both my grandmothers were 'givers', and would give their last penny, last package of meat, last jar of canned goods, to help and bless their neighbors, and sometimes even their enemies.
I saw how good the receiver felt. I saw how much peace my grandmothers felt. I understood that it can be more blessed to give than to receive, and I've tried to practice this throughout my life.
Yet, I find myself surrounded by people who view a 'gift', an act of generosity, as suspect.
OR, the receiver wants more, to the point it feels like a leech sucking every last drop of blood from me. And, God forbid, if I say anything to put a stop to the blood-letting!
I guess I live in a time where common courtesy and human decency is no longer taught at home, or anywhere else, for that matter. It's every man out for himself and kindness, compassion, and generosity are viewed as a weakness, OR as a tool for dark motives.
Nothing is respected. Nothing is sacred. Nothing is held to a higher standard.
Just humans behaving uncivilized, selfish, careless, and without thought or consideration of anyone else.
Some people make life so sad and unsatisfactory.
Some people...
Monday, June 22, 2020
June 22, 2020 Update
Well, it's been a while since I've been on this blog site, seven years and twenty-two days to be exact. Sad, actually, to let her go for so long without so much as a word. I had such high and mighty hopes for this blog, but as with all things pertaining to my life, it only mattered to me.
I did delete many things before I left, things that mattered to me, but only mattered to others as a means to harass and bully me. For someone who has battled severe depression and low self-esteem all of her life, the last thing I needed was to be put down and made fun of concerning things that were important to me.
I refuse to 'grow a thicker skin' when people refuse to show human kindness!
Why am I always the one who has to change and make compromises?
Anyway, dropping in for a few minutes to revisit this site only farther depresses me.
Maybe another day, but today ain't that day.
I did delete many things before I left, things that mattered to me, but only mattered to others as a means to harass and bully me. For someone who has battled severe depression and low self-esteem all of her life, the last thing I needed was to be put down and made fun of concerning things that were important to me.
I refuse to 'grow a thicker skin' when people refuse to show human kindness!
Why am I always the one who has to change and make compromises?
Anyway, dropping in for a few minutes to revisit this site only farther depresses me.
Maybe another day, but today ain't that day.
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